Right, here comes a bit of a bigger post

So, M started his testosterone - yay!! Or so you'd think, but no I was numpty enough to talk to him about going in to counselling (he's on a waiting list, but can seek counselling privately) as I am having difficulty coping. Not with him, but in general, and I can't help but feel that he needs more support than I may be capable of giving at the moment as I have fairly bad mental health issues. Naturally, I did not explain this well, he felt like I was giving up on him and there was a MASSIVE meltdown. However, I have since explained things to him in better detail and I think he feels better, and I feel like less of an idiot.

So any differences to note? Yep. He smells different. I can't explain how, he just does. And the effect on his sex drive was almost instantaneous, but I won't go in to too much detail about that as it feels like I'm somehow betraying his trust by posting stuff like that all over cyberspace. And his temperament is much better. He's less tetchy and back to being the cuddle monster I love so much. It's like one of the biggest hurdles has been attacked and now he feels, well, to use his words, he feels like he's had superpowers injected in to him. I can't help but feel that it must be a bit like having steroids pumped in to you, or something like that. I think I would feel a bit like I could run around lifting cars and shiz. I'm slightly jealous!!

Fairly soon I'm going to start updating with little pictures for all of you, I can't help but think that this must all look a wee bit bare :/ For now, I shall try and find a bunch of pictures to show you the effects that T can have on a person *hops off to google-land*

There are tonnes out there, but this one shows you what can happen, even in 6 months! It's NUTS! I can't do anything but admire this guy's bravery for posting something like this out there.... There's something really beautiful about it!!

Anyway, gotta scoot for now chaps, see ya later!!

E xxx

P.S. This is his link - cool, eh? http://genderoutlaw.wordpress.com/evolution/

Well folks, I realise that it's been about a month since I last posted. We've had a month of existing, and stress about our show, as well as me having my assignments. I don't have much time right now to write much, other than M had his first shot of T today *dances*. It's a great day, but with an edge of angst. More later!! I'll keep you updated on how everything goes, and any changes we see.

E